50 years ago we wouldn't even dream of knowing the things that we know now and since we have the technology that we do often times with the good comes the bad....
In my last post i talked about how excited we all were in regards to the news that we were having a baby boy. The one thing that i forgot to tell you was that the technician told us that we need to come back in a week so that we can get some clearer pictures. She said that she was having a hard time seeing his face because his hands were in the way. So today Bianca went back to the hospital where the redid the ultrasound so that they could get better pictures of our sons face. My wife called me at work shortly after the appointment in tears and she said that hospital set up another appointment the next day with a Neo Natal Specialist. At this point we were very scared to say the least. Bianca and I went to the hospital and sat down with the doctor. He looked at both of us and told us that Nathan has a cleft lip and possible a cleft palate. He also said that we have 2 vessel umbilical cord. Which by itself means nothing, but with the cleft lip might mean that we have some chromosomal issues. He issued an amnio test which draws amniotic fluid from the uterus and can determine whether an unborn child has down syndrome and many other chromosomal anomalies. As soon as the doctor started explaining all of this too us i looked over at Bianca and she was just crying and was in total shock. We left that appointment with the "wind taken out of our sails" in a matter of speaking.
Over the next couple of days as we were waiting for results of the amino test, we started looking for answers as to why this was happening to us. We started praying for more answers and as I was praying, GOD told me not to look at why this happened, but look at what can come of this. GOD has a plan for all of us and the plan for our son is very clear. He is a "GIFT FROM GOD" that's why we chose his name and that's why GOD is giving us the strength to carry on and do whatever we can to make Nathans life the best we possible can. GOD would never given any of us more than we can handle and even though this is a tough situation for us to be in, we will find ways to deal with it. We will get the best doctors, surround ourselves with friends and family and we will continue to keep our faith in GOD Strong
The one thing that keeps me going right now is the following verse from Jeremiah 1:5 Before I formed you in the womb, I knew you, Before you were born, I set you apart; I appointed you a prophet to the nations. This verse gives me comfort that GOD knows what he is doing and that we all have a plan on this earth. My advice to anyone that comes across hard times is to continue to keep your faith, pray as GOD is always TESTING OUR FAITH and we have to do everything we can keep GOD in our lives.
With Love Jonathan
"A Fathers Story"
